Hi Folks!

I am still here, although I am thinking of making some changes.

Don’t worry.   Buffy is still part of the plan.   She is still happy that she can be out on the porch.   And, when Buffy is happy, she is not looking for things to get into that she knows she’s not supposed to be into, such as swinging from the chandelier or plucking the wire wall sculpture like a harp. It is not a harp.  It is a tree and she  has no musical talent that makes that action at all cute.  Most of the time I am thinking how much damage to her and to the sofa underneath it that metal tree would do.

I do keep a loaded water pistol handy,  right across from the aforementioned metal tree.  I am prepared.

But then, I do have to wipe off the sofa after I do squirt her.  Or, I have to remember to wipe it off after I get up from my recliner.

It’s that remembering thing that’s the problem.

And that brings me back to the original topic of making some changes.  I am 95% decided  not to return to subbing.

There are a couple of reasons for my 95% decision. awwqassssweqqazaszwazdsazsaZswazqZqESASEDSQAZSDXWSEDRFAWSADXZSA2QWASZX   Sorry.  Buffy knocked over a water bottle on my laptop. Thankfully it had a top on it.  The top, however was not locked and a few drops landed on the keyboard. I need to fill the birdfeeders and get them up tomorrow morning to keep her busy in the living room when I’m here.

Back to the decision.  The 95 % part has the idea that stress is not a good thing for cancer patients to subject themselves to.  We all know that teaching is stressful; subbing adds that extra kick to the process.  Also in that percentage is the fact that my brain is not always there.  Well, I mean it’s there all right, otherwise how would my ears not fall into my head?  The mental acuity is not  as consistent as it needs to be to be in front of a classroom of kids.  I know this before I get in front of a classroom of kids because sometimes when I’m doing a crossword puzzle, there are things that I KNOW I KNOW, yet I can’t access them.  Searching for words or thoughts or facts is not something that classes who have subs are willing to wait for. ( Holy buckets, I’m ending a lot of my sentences with prepositions today!)  I remember this from my days in school with a sub; today’s kids have less patience and more ideas on how to misbehave.

You’ll notice that there’s still a 5% left floating out there. This is the part that says, “Oh, you can do it, Janet.  Stop this negative thinking and just get out there and do it!”  And, “You love to teach!  You don’t want to give that up.”

So, this is where I am right now.  Stuck between the Protestant Work Ethic and Taking Care of Myself.

See you tomorrow.

Love,

Janet